I take much effort on treating people nicely. Past mistakes have taught me sometimes that it is not that good of an idea. I don't really expect people to treat me the same. I feel being nice to people will only make myself a better person. Whether the people act the same way, or not, it is really not my concern. I would like to think that I have matured well through out the years, to differentiate between friends and selfish mindless people.
Anyway, I am not sure what this post is all about. I was just thinking how this cycle of friends = foes , foes = friends work. I have to admit, I have lost loads of friends. Mostly high school friends, although they are a couple of good friends from school still notably people like Wanick and Ijan. My good friends nowadays are people I have met along the way since. Who turned out to be a bunch of great mates. Real friends. Thinking of high school , I quite dread it knowing how much I have lost because of stupid reasons. I can clearly remember the faces of people from back then, how much I despise their existence and all I feel for them is hate. Normally I choose to ignore these faces, but today I felt why not spend a moment thinking of how much things have change and how are these people doing in their present life.
Hence the topic. I am not being mean. I am not being resentful. I feel wrong, but I suppose, patience takes you a long way. I have tried to accept, to understand and to forgive. I quite envy people who have good friends whom they know since they were kids. But I am not that emotional sensitive sentimental type of a dude anymore plus I got my girlfriend to sort me out in that sector if any is needed, so fuck them people.
I still hope they pull it through and do well to sort their life out though. So I suppose I am not that bad at all, how many people do you know that would want people they hate to do well in life?
The only morale i can think of is, be nice dont be a pig.
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