Midweek Ramblings

It is officially spring, finally. The weather been messing with my head a little. It is still chilled in the morning, come afternoon the temperature gets better. I have been a little bit worried with my job applications. I should be able to get a place sorted soon hopefully, I need to learn more about the industry before I could be bothered to research about ways to improve it. So far, not many companies is willing to take me on because of my non existent working experience! On a different note, I have actually finished all my lectures for my Masters of Science degree. How fast time flies.

Now it is the time to worry about the future again. I quite hate the fact that I will have to find a job and start settling down and work. As a lazy fat ass bastard, I quite enjoy the easy life of being a student. After all, I have spent nearly 5 years in university- 4 years for my civil and structural engineering degree and now a year of masters. Love it to every bit. I enjoyed my time during masters most. Probably because I did manage to pursue my interest in learning more about the environmental side of civil engineering and that might be the main reason I quite enjoyed it. Another reason would be I finally managed to get a distinction again, the last time I managed to get a good semester result was back in 2nd year ! It is definitely a morale booster!

The problem now is I dont think i can maintain that performance for my 2nd semester. I have to admit I have not been putting as much effort as I should. Too much fooling about this semester! I am not the type of person that will go nervous and get all stressed out about exams. I quite know it before hand whether I will be up for it of vice versa. Unfortunately my mom got the same sort of telling powers too ! I had a chat with her on the phone today, and she told me she got the feeling that I am not well prepared for the exams. She asked me if that is the case and I replied with a short "sort of" and I can hear my dad in the background saying " Did he just said SOD OFF ?! " I guess the old man is really OLD now !

Obviously, I will be working hard for the exams in the next few weeks. For my parents' sake and my lovely girlfriend too, I will make sure I get the results needed. If its up to me, I will probably just leave it to the last minute and probably scrap my way through ! Thank God for their existence in my life ! They`re like my enzymes.

The thoughts of working, 9-5 daily, and living for the weekends and the 30 days annual leave make me a very very sad man. I am not looking forward to end my student life. I am not looking forward to be stepping in the rat race, the human traffic is not for me. The " work to live, or die trying " motto definitely does not makes all sense to me. But the easy life, big houses , nice fancy cars, that is quite appealing. Unfortunately, it wont happen anytime soon. My mom made it clear that I might have to start work a.s.a.p so I can help fund my other siblings education in the future. My dad is getting old and personally, he cant wait for his retirement. Apart from that, theres my big student loan to be paid ! Well at least I can still have my student diet in the future even though I might not be a student anymore...ahhh cabbages and tomato soup!

So friends, please doa banyak banyak for me. Hopefully I will manage to get a good result. A good job. earn a good wage. and my sisters better be rich or at least marry a rich gentleman one day. ( My sisters only, not my girlfriend ok? and of course lah the marriage have to be based on love )

Heh, such is life.