Midweek Ramblings

It is officially spring, finally. The weather been messing with my head a little. It is still chilled in the morning, come afternoon the temperature gets better. I have been a little bit worried with my job applications. I should be able to get a place sorted soon hopefully, I need to learn more about the industry before I could be bothered to research about ways to improve it. So far, not many companies is willing to take me on because of my non existent working experience! On a different note, I have actually finished all my lectures for my Masters of Science degree. How fast time flies.

Now it is the time to worry about the future again. I quite hate the fact that I will have to find a job and start settling down and work. As a lazy fat ass bastard, I quite enjoy the easy life of being a student. After all, I have spent nearly 5 years in university- 4 years for my civil and structural engineering degree and now a year of masters. Love it to every bit. I enjoyed my time during masters most. Probably because I did manage to pursue my interest in learning more about the environmental side of civil engineering and that might be the main reason I quite enjoyed it. Another reason would be I finally managed to get a distinction again, the last time I managed to get a good semester result was back in 2nd year ! It is definitely a morale booster!

The problem now is I dont think i can maintain that performance for my 2nd semester. I have to admit I have not been putting as much effort as I should. Too much fooling about this semester! I am not the type of person that will go nervous and get all stressed out about exams. I quite know it before hand whether I will be up for it of vice versa. Unfortunately my mom got the same sort of telling powers too ! I had a chat with her on the phone today, and she told me she got the feeling that I am not well prepared for the exams. She asked me if that is the case and I replied with a short "sort of" and I can hear my dad in the background saying " Did he just said SOD OFF ?! " I guess the old man is really OLD now !

Obviously, I will be working hard for the exams in the next few weeks. For my parents' sake and my lovely girlfriend too, I will make sure I get the results needed. If its up to me, I will probably just leave it to the last minute and probably scrap my way through ! Thank God for their existence in my life ! They`re like my enzymes.

The thoughts of working, 9-5 daily, and living for the weekends and the 30 days annual leave make me a very very sad man. I am not looking forward to end my student life. I am not looking forward to be stepping in the rat race, the human traffic is not for me. The " work to live, or die trying " motto definitely does not makes all sense to me. But the easy life, big houses , nice fancy cars, that is quite appealing. Unfortunately, it wont happen anytime soon. My mom made it clear that I might have to start work a.s.a.p so I can help fund my other siblings education in the future. My dad is getting old and personally, he cant wait for his retirement. Apart from that, theres my big student loan to be paid ! Well at least I can still have my student diet in the future even though I might not be a student anymore...ahhh cabbages and tomato soup!

So friends, please doa banyak banyak for me. Hopefully I will manage to get a good result. A good job. earn a good wage. and my sisters better be rich or at least marry a rich gentleman one day. ( My sisters only, not my girlfriend ok? and of course lah the marriage have to be based on love )

Heh, such is life.

Hip Hop you dont stop !

I have not been able to listen to the latest hip hop albums the past year. All the same sounds, samples and weak lyrics have made me felt a little bit bitter about hip hop. Apart from Sage Francis, MF Doom and the Anticon crew, I felt hip hop lost its edge. Until recently , I heard Dan Le Sac Vs Scroobious Pip. Fcking fresh , nice eletronica-experimental beats from Dan laced with Pip's amazing spoken word lyrics. Remind me of Sage and Alias of the Anticon Crew. So here goes...

Made In Malaysia

I have been wondering, when will I be back home again. Its been 2 years now since I last stepped my foot out of Malaysia and I miss home astoundingly ! Having said that, I wont be able to go home as soon as I thought, its a balance. I know how much I want to go home , but then there are more important things that I need to sort out here first. Its all a nightmare really.

Wani's going back home for a good few months, and then most of my housemates will be flying off too except for Fariz. That is no fun I tell you. Life for the next 4 months ahead is not exciting at all... or is it ?

Here are some prodigious malaysian bands , a must listen.

No Genius

Today been a little hard, I have been trying to identify things lately. But I suppose at the end of the day, after a lot of thinking....Eventually, I will still be at the wrong end! Always. No point drowning myself in thoughts, a man will always have to endure it all, swallow the pain, feel the misery. Hopefully one day, life will be how it is meant to be. Love will get through it all, sustain and grow. Then may be, they will understand what it is that makes me feel the way I feel.

MWW and I wish things are better, so much better.

The Battle

Its examination time now, its weird but i love it. I guess after 4 years of university I am now more or less numb. I don't get nervous and stress much, but i quite enjoy the pressure. It makes me work harder I suppose. To all examination candidates, I wish you all the best !

Beautiful songs...

When you're not around, these soothing sounds ease the mind....

I miss you Shazwani !

All the stress in the world, is nothing as hard to handle....

The beginning

Greetings earthlings,

As the world turns, the population growth increases. The bond between one human and another grows apart by seconds. While many of us are busy chasing dreams, trying to out live one another in order to get to the top, we forget. We forget what are actually important and what should be our priorities in this life we living in.

This blog is not aim to set priorities for you, nor will it highlight any. This blog is a rambling, about life, universe and everything within that might connect similar minds and heads together. Therefore, this blog is at its best, a platform for oneself to understand a life of an individual just trying to......... live.

Regards.